long time din update my blog!!!!

few days ago i changed my hair style...ang i coloured my hair too...^.^

nice anot???(heheee)

20 december 2007--> today went out with my gal frens...jess's hubby was joining us too...but jillian was not joining us because her mother didn't let her go out ....woke up at 9 sth...wait yvonne come to my house ...finish prepared then went out about 10:30a.m...reached neway about 11...jess and kraven were waiting for us...took our room and started our sang time...suddenly we saw that jess cried...looked at her phone and kept crying...yvonne and i looked at each other because we dunno that wat's going on...we asked jess den she said her sister massage her....(sure no good things la...) since she told her mother that she got a boyfren..her mother started scold her...her mother did't like her that she have a boyfren...(my dear u really very kesian...i felt sad on u...)she lived in unhappy and worried days....i saw she like that...i felt that my heart so pain...althought her mother didn't like...her sister should understand that...but she dosen't do it...and kept going said some things that make jess felt so sad...sigh..
we went to finished at 1pm...meet up sofia...and they
accompany me go to buy some christmas presents to my cousins...after that
went to take sticker photo...de machine keep on got problem make us need to take many times... the photo are nice...
went to sg.wang coz i looking for some shoes...but i cant get it...because quite expensive...
went to pavilion...sofia and i were looking for some jobs...but we cant get any job at there..after that we went to micky shop for find some shoes coz having sale...but i didn't get it too...after thet we went to bata shop...yvonne asked me that we need to wait jess and kraven anot??then i said no need ..we went they 1st...give them time...but that time y really dunno that it will make a problem...get my shoes from bata...then saw jess and kraven...went to have our hi-tea at a chinese restaurant...de decoration at there is nice...
but quite expensive...while waiting de food...we took some pictures...then we went to baskin robbincoz kraven and jess want to buy...ather bought baskin robbin...took some pictures with my girls...

*girls...you know...you are de most important friends in my life...coz i just have few of true friends in my life...but dunno why...i have de feelings that im gonna lost all of you...you know...when you all went off from mickey shop without inform me...my heart feel so hurt...why cant u all just tell me that u are leaving 1st...mayb im not important...its okie...i feel that they will be happy although without me...
before i separate with my girls...they keep on taking pictures...im just like out of de gang...* jess said....

i really dunno that i do like that will make u think this kind of stupid things...u said u just hav few of true frens...i noe coz me too...but u only think that we felt that u're not important...can u understand wat is my feeling now...not omly me...yvonne ad sofia...we treat u how...i believe that u noe...u treat us how we also noe...and understant...do u noe that y we dun wan took pic wif u??u noe??u dunno...u just will think that u're not impirtant...can u tell me y u wan think like tat??i told u many times already...u oe u think like tat it unfair to us...we saw tat u're sad...we not brave to called u take pic with us...u said u're like trasparent..i ask u....when i walked alone..in middle...sofia and yvonne walked in front of me..and u and kraven waiked behind...then wat should i think wat am i...izzit i need to think tat i am not important??i really dunno how to say....

*when my friends sad...i always tell them dun think so much...everything will be fine...dun be so sad...i feel that im so useless by saying all that kind of words...
i know how to tell people that kind of words...but when im sad...all that kind of words cant get into my mind...
my mind full of negative things...i hope to end my life now...
i feel so tired de...im tired of crying...im tired to suffer from sadness...
can i stop my life now???im so regret that i have been born out...
i need someone by my side now...but i know...although there's someone by my side...he/she cant help me get throught all of this...
my heart is full of sadness and tears...de only thing that i can do is crying...*jess said...

jess...all poeple in this world also will get problem..when u face somethings that i cant help u...i also only will tell u dun wan cried...it will be ok...izit useless???i tell u it is not useless...when i down all the word that u gave me will be my energy to give me support to face the problem...can u think something that is postive??...wat trouble maker...we worried u it is bcoz that we worried u only...no one is pefect...u aso will make us worried...angry...and happy...just same wif me...yvonne...jill and sofia...we also will make u sad...angry..happy and worry too...i just can said this...because y know that if i alr cant give u confident that i still treat u a best fren...u still will felt urself are not important...it happen between chien and vivian wif yvonne and i...u noe the feeling that yvonne and i hav before..u noe it...so pls dun make us feel like tat...it will very hurt that u cant imagine...

since u decided to tell ur mum that u hav bf...then u cant scape the pro...u noe that ur mum wont agree...scold u...but u still hav to face it...if like tat u also need to die...want to stop ur life...how many time u need to die har??!!!dun think somethings tat cant solve the pro...the road that u took...no matter wat happen u still need to walk...cant give up...becoz this is ur life...pls think better...dun think like that again...