Today went to my uncle’s hse as usual…

moody day…

as yday night some unhappy happen between us…

argue with him…

but I still need to act as I was nothing in front of my parent…

went out for breakfast…

chat with him although we both also unhaapy…

I think that was my fault again…

said sth that was not suppose to say to him…but I did…*sigh*…

after we ate breakfast…then we started to go to uncle’s house…reached there around 1pm…really no mood…lying on my cousin sister bed…sms with him…

"do u still want to go out on sun?i mean yourself ”

he called me after a few sec…his sound heard like very down…

just same with me…not longer we started arguing…

I knew that was my as I said something that really hurt him..

so I just keep quite…

but when he said until something there was really hurt me…

my tears was dropped by itself…I dunno why it will so suffer…

at the moment my heart was pain…dunno how to describe it…

actually I really dunno how big that the fault I made…

I knew it was suffer when u heard what im talked to u…

but I dunno wat can I describe my feeling now….

u knew that when u said that sometimes u felt that really hated me

as every time I did wrong things I only how to said sorry…

nothing real action to show u that I was really like u..

I do but since u say that I said like fake…really fake…

whatever I did u cant felt that it was real…

u made me cant speak out even a word as I really dunno wat can i do already…

I really dunno how to tell u that I love u..

u told me that find a good reason that we go out with a happy…smilly day…

put down ur call…

inside my mind was nothing!! really funny…

u sent told me that u only said

becoz u were angry…

becoz u were unhappy…

I thought I will be fine..but I cant…really hard to stabling my emotion…

when u called me again said “bao bao”…

I really suffer at the moment…

act I should happy but I cant did it…I thnk I was crazy…

if write really cant describe my feeling…

I think I will be fine in the coming days…I hope I can fine ^.^

*Thank you my cousin brother as they brought me souvenir from vietnam ..and my aunty gave me 1 set of hair care shampoo *

Last night…around 10 pm..while I was updating my blog...

i receive a message from jess…she told me that she nit to go interview a jod tat was intro by her uncle on tomorrow…she told me tat she cant reject her uncle..

I was shock after read tat msg…

it is bcoz tat she already promised the boss she will go to work tomolo morning..then I asked her to work for 1 month…same like Yvonne…coz it was the better method..

she told me that her mummy dun wan she work at sg. Wang…I noe tat her mummy was the per tat very “hard neck”…she wont change her mind…

I aso knew that jess…u are very “wei nan”…between ur mummy and fren…

but ..tis time is ur fault…it wont be happen as u should tell ur mum since tat u noe u have a job at sg wang and will be work there soon…

since tat u told yvonne…she already let her family…yday that msg tat i send to u u…u ar very sad…I noe tat v are very “guo fen” send tat kind msg to u…but u noe tat our attitude..

as u noe us for a quite long time..yvonne was very angry…

for me..i didn’t stand at which side…as ur trusted fren…I only said the truth…I only wan tell u tat...i really hate u said urself stupid!!u aren’t stupid …and I never said tat as ur fren I was very suffer…

I very happy tat I have u tis kind of fren..we angry u it is becoz tat we do love u…all ppl live in tis world are perfect…dun ever said urself like tat…dun cry coz it dosen’t work…it will not help u…u should do sth when u wan to solve the problem..do u get wat I mean??dun alwiz said tat wan to die..after u dead ..wat u can get..

love from ur hubby??

love from ur family??

or love from frens??

u get nothings!!

mayb now u felt tat very suffer…but u will grow up one day…u noe??u wont alwiz stay in tis range..u will become more mature…the sight of u will be change..I dunno how to describe my feel now…actually I hope that it will not be happen between us..between our friendship…because I knew tat I can have all of u as my best friend is a thing tat hard to do and get it...wat I wan to tell u…not wan to said tat u are useless…

I wan u to be strong..dun alwiz blame urself…when tat was not ur fault..

and face the one u have make it wrong…

mayb wat I write at here…I will not goin to read it..even to c my blog…I just wan to tell u tat…if u really noe. Who am i>>Samantha cheah soo li and Yvonne hock…u will noe tat..wat I write at here are not rubbish…hope u will think about it...i dun wan tat we will bcum the case like before...i appreciate all of u..think carefully...

30.03.08…actually today I nit to go ching ming…but as I was already date with my fren to watch movie at pavilion there…so I did’t go…I noe that my parents was not happy that I do that…luckily they did’t scold me..only angry for a while ..woke up at 9..help my mummy hang out the clothes..and my chat with my babe for a while..prepared myself..wait for Yvonne then went out together…took some pictures …we went to watch “lao shi jia lao da”..a singapore and malaysia ‘s movie… but we was late as the reservation nit to take ticket 30minutes before the movie show…we reach there about 11:40a.m…luckily the movie was not as much as last time..so we got our tickets…the movie was very funny..inside the cinema…all ppl was laughing..included both of us…it was really really funny movie…it was not only entertaining…it aso had some educating…mat Jessie at sg wang as Yvonne and she nit to interview…not long later sofia was aso reached..accompany them to interview…they started to work tomorrow…after that had our lunch at Teppayaki …we asked sofia that why both of them will break up…discuss the love’s problem..is it all the couple together for a long period will break up in the end?? I think not necessary..bcoz all couples have their own problems…jess nit to go back home early as she nit to go her fren’wedding dinner…so accompany her went to time square…before she keave we took some picture as well…(heeeheee)..then we walked back to pavilion as we want to go miss forever to buy something to customize our phone…I aso brought 1 for my babe from Branelli…it was J..represent his first name’s alphabet…hope he will like it…^.^around 7 we went back home coz it was quite late...having dinner with family..

*happy birtday to u...jillian..*

*thank you for borrow me ur dress..yvone*

*sorry mummy...i noe tat i did't go for ching ming...u ar not happy about tat*

Today was the day I nit to go TAR college to submit my application as I wan to study at there…

woke up around 9 a.m. ..and called my boss as I haven’t tell him that I will go to TAR…prepared everything…check the form make sure that already filled up…took my breakfast and make up myself…then waited my friend>> Yvonne.. she also wan to study at TAR…the course that we taken was Diploma in Business Studies>> Business Administration and Diploma in Mass Communication>> Public Relations…finished our stuff ...then went to TAR college..1st we sat Star LRT go to Masjid Jamek ..reached there changed to Putra Line to go Wangsa Maju…after we reached we took bus to go TAR college…as we dunno how to go the register’s place…I asked the guard of the college to show me the way.

.* do u noe where is the register’s place?

~jalan terus turn left then I said thank you…

but act we dunno wat he talking about ?!! wat can we do? Then we found after asked many ppl…it was inside the blok A..aaked some question about the loan…put the application form..then went back…after 1 hour we finally reached sg wang as we took bus…we wan to go sg wang for buy mask and had our lunch there.. unluckily the shop tat sell mask was closed…go to try some shirt but at last did’t brought any 1 of them.. finish our stuff…then yvonne went to my house…we watched all the photo captured when she was inside the camp…really very funny!!(heeeheee)

*sorry my babe…today I was quite unhappy tat u was distrust me…and asked me tat kind of things.. at night when we chat..we was quite unhappy…about my future..u was worry about it…scare I will change my mind…I wont give u any promise now as I really dunno how matter will happen in my future life..i noe that I do love u now..but wat u told me really do hurt me… whatever u said I aso wont blame u…becoz is I make the confidents gone…*

22nd mar…today was the day to go to
Pangkor Island…woke up quite early.. around 5:30a.m..prepared myself..had cha xiu bao as my breakfast..as my cousin came to fetch us to go there..we waited him..during tat time my sweetie was sent me a morning message..i was shocked tat he woke up so early…later no semangat do to work then how???
*i:y wake up so early o??
*babe:coz u goin out early ma…then I acc u lo…
(Heeheee…so sweet to hear my babe said like that)
around 6:50a.m we started our journey.. the 1st station that we need to go was meet up my relative as we had about 6 family went together…we mat them at a temple…but not sure the location of it…as they haven take their breakfast..so we had some food as breakfast…after that we started our journey…we change our seat..i sat together with my cousins…reached pangkor island around 3sth as we needed to sit boot…went to hotel…(coral bay resort)…took our room and had our lunch…after lunch we walked to beach to have a look…then we went back to hotel…as the skies was grey-blue…we changed our clothà beach wear…den had joy had fun at the beach…

after finished played…went back to hotel…and washed our body and jumped into the smimming pool!(heeehee)…play and play…after that we was exhausted …cleaned up myself and waited for my dinner…we had our dinner in a restaurant which was near by our hotel….then went back to our hotel… chat with my cousin sister for a while as we was too tired….changed my sleeping clothes…then went inside my dream…………………….
Woke up around 8:30…I saw my phone that was 4 messages and 10++missed called…that was my sweetie called…. *sorry my sweetie…as I was too tired den I did’t wait ur called and did’t pick it up…make u so worried…really sorry!!* as I let him worried till cant slept for whole night…I fast gave him a morning msg and aso called him…after I finish my stuff …included take shower..my cousin sister suddenly came into my room then said : “u taking bath just now? Y u take bath?!we are goin to beach later and aso want to play banana boot!”
At that moments…I really dosent want to play because my body was quite pain…especially my legs…but when I heard tat wan to play banana boot den I started felt excited as I dosent played it b4….changed my wet beach wear back…went to my little cousin sister room to wake them up...after prepared…we took our breakfast at downstairs and went to beach…played our BANANA BOOT!!!!

(heheee)it was the time we needed to checked out and went back to kl … started our journey at 1sth…had my lunch at kuala selangor…a seafood’s cuisine…went back home individual…
At night…chat with my sweetie…talked a lot of things…after only I went to be pig!!( keeekeee)
I miss you …my sweetie!!muakx