yesterday night...like about 10:15 pm...vivian was called me...i thought her jus wanna chat with me...but her voice was so serious...so i asked her : " eh..wat's going on? "she said that yvonne called her...and she said something that was very hurt to us...yvonne said : " you and cai didn't lend your hand to help me settle the problem...you two like watching me let the fire burn on my body...but diddn't come to resuce me...just let it be...somebody that was come to help me and resuce me is jess..not you two...i'm so dissappointed on you...if that is a change...i hope that i can change you 2 friend...to get jess..."....oh my god!!!we just like get a big shock and so damn sad...how can you said that kind of word?? we dosent understand...yvonne...vivian and me can describe that we are best fren...becoz we already know each other since i standard 1...until now we still are friend...we already know each other almost 10 years...how can you said like that??...i cant accept it...it is very hard to accept...heart just like broke..vivian also very sad...she said how can she accept it...she cried...when i was on bed...i felt that i cant fall asleep...this two was too much things happen around me...sigh...

today...yvonne told me that she was not serious when she said that word...she just want to 'jik' us...she dosent meant like she really want to do it...she just wan to wake us up...don't always said dunno when something was happen...dont just kept quiet...give some comment to her...to solve our problem..she explain many things to me...she teach me many things...she also told me that i should't be like that...i should be responsiblity...as a friend...i should do something for solve our friendship's problem...thanks for telling me the truth...my best friend...i cant find another friend that is better than you..although...that was quite sad when i heard that...as a friend...i will try my best to do it better...

when i reached home...i called vivian and told her all the things that yvonne told me inside school...she agree that what yvonne said...she also told me she will talk back with yvonne but not now...because she still cant accept that sentence...'change you 2 friend...to get jess...'...so i told her i know how hurt that feeling....i really know...sigh...maybe you need some time to accept...because...it already a truth...wait you two 'hao hui' la...^.^

it cant be "dang" never happen...

Today lolipop message me...she say: " sammie....sorry i make u sad and no mood becoz of tat case..when i saw yvonne sms me tat kind of msg...i reali get shock...why u will so fast tell her the message tat i sent to u...so i onli think tat u are bad...it is becoz i already very "fan"...then still let me noe u told her tat thingz...i only will think all the bad thingz about u...dun think the good things..if i really think u are bad...i wont tell u all the thingz...rite?i'm not meant tat u are bad...i'm not serious...hope tat u aso can 'ti liang' me...i noe tat u are a good fren to have...everytime u stand by me...i still think like tat...i'm so sorry..will u forgive me...no next time...u din angry me den gud la...i dun wan i lose 1 more best fren...so we jus 'dang' nothing happen lah..."....sorry lolipop...my fren i cheat u... u hope tat i can jus 'dang' nothing happen...sorry...i cant...it already a knife put on my heart...so pain...so sad...and aso very dissapointed on myself...it is jus like a broken mirror...it cant be as same as it havent dropped on the floor..forever...yvonne...u noe wat kind of feeling i had now....actually...lolipop no need said sorry to me...becoz i swear...tat is reali my false...is me cant keep secret..so the situation onli will becum more worst..juz becoz my attititute...i cant jus act like never happen..jessie: "why u becum like tat...u noe how i'm sad...why u wan make me so dissapointed...why??..."...i reali cant answer u my dear...i already blur...i already dunno wat kind of person am i...so please dun keeping ask me...but today...u message me...u say: "sorry that yday scold u like tat...coz u are my best fren i onli will scold u like tat...hope u understand..." jess...u no nit said sorry to me...u are rite...i really is a worst frenz to hav...i should't let all of my fren worry me...becoz i wan all of u think me is a gal tat happy alwiz...but i din archieve my goal...i jus let u all felt tat i chage already...felt so dissapointed on me...yvonne...thank you...is u tell me tat is dosent my false...u aso wan to noe wat i give u to see...u let me see the touching song and story....u make me feel tat tat is can be real in our real life...i reali thank for it...but...give me some time...i will be fine....i wont make u all felt dissapointed and sad again...i wont like a person tat not 'li zi'...i will think mature...really very very very sorry...my all dear frenz...please forgive me...my bad attitute....

wat kind a human am i??y i make somebody tat are love me sad...and dissapointed of my attitute...јзѕѕіз says:"why u still wanna like that?i really dunun what u thinking lo why u cant think mature wor why wanna like that u know how sad am i when i saw u like that u make me so disappointed im so sam tong at u"....keat said"i brought u a neckles before we break...cause the second month i did't brought u anything then coming in the 3rd month i call my sister to buy it...remember i will give you a suprise that i say before?but i throw it alr..becoz i cant 4get everythinh...i hold the neckles and i cry 4 1 week at last i cant stand it anymore.."lolipop"y u wan let yvonne see tat msg..i think i let cai tat 'chu mai'..."....sigh...i make all of my frenz..or even my ex bf sad...y i'm so bad??all is my false...i'm not "pei" to becum ur fren...is im not mature...if i think carefully...or just kept quiet...maybe all the thing will be better...now...juz becoz i'm so bad..."xian hai" my fren-lolipop...onli will become like tat...i reali...damn damn damn bad...no "zhi ge" to hav a good fren...a lover..i'm juz a bad gal...is cant hav a fren tat treat me so good...just leave me alone la...my dear fren...

haiz...

i felt tat 22th is a bad luck date to me...i break up wif my both bf aso on tis day..my fren argue until "fan min" aso drop on tis date..sigh.....yday..yvonne..chien and cui sin were argue...umm... beause of some small thingz...i thought tat they we become fren again..but tat answer is not wat i'm think...i think tat tis is my false..if i din let yvonne to see tat massage..maybe tat will be a change tat can be frez again..sigh...but i let her see...i think i'm a not a good fren to have...even a girlfriend..so i wont said tat who is the right or wrong...i just felt tat chien reali change alr...i noe tat u alr enough tat need to "ren" yvonne attitute...but the message tat u sent to me...i can tell u tat is the first time i never seem before...it is quite shock when i read tat..i like felt tat is not chien tat i noe...u like another gal who tat i dunno...i cant say any comment in tis case...becoz i aso not a good fren..but i hope tat tis kind of thing..wont happen again..if i will lost another frenz...i pray tat..today jess..jill...yvonne...cuisin and i go to time square again..but the mood is damn not good...haiz...today it should be 7 of us go out...sigh...y will become like tis de??sweetie 7 is not sweet anymore... =.=...

TODAY the bm teacher was very funny...he suppose to teach us permahaman komsas...but he started to tell us about love...hehee...he said tat nowadays many ppl pak tou at this time...he said tat it is a super stupid thingz tat if u pak tou at tis time..no i dun think so...coz i aso got pak tou as im a student...heehee...especially chinese gal...but malay and indian aso hav la..hehe...he tell us about his past...about his love...he said love is sth tat very mulia..it cant be sell or buy...so that we should appreciate wat we have now..after recess..we take 1 additional math question paper from my classmate..she tell us tat the question need to pass up on tommorrow...oh my god...how can i finish all the question ??but luckly tat is objective question...hehehee..

nw is about 3:47pm..as i nothing to do...i edit tis pitcure...nice?these pic was taken on merdeka day...i love u all..gals..kekeke..^.^